Hello to the blog that no one follows, lol.  I love to check back on this for personal reasons though, it does let me glimpse into the past.

So, I've been back from Kuwait for 2 years now, and struggling, truly struggling, with my weight since then. I'm at an all time high in weight and size.  It's making me very unhappy, but my response lately more than anything has been just to binge more.

A dear friend recently recommended a book to me that is resonating a lot.  I'm only on Chapter 4, but I am learning so much about binging disorder. It's "Food: The Good Girls Drug". In the mean time, I decided to do a reset.

Mind you, I made fun of my coworkers for doing this, and now I feel a little bad, lol.  It's called Eat Your Heart Out.  Now, mind you, I have never been a fan of fad diets and have always kind of felt disdain for them. However, I did some research and haven't heard anything terrible about this one.  It was hard, but I feel that it set me up to feel good about whole foods and it really brought to the front of my mind my incredibly harmful relationship with food. I think about it constantly. Not in a healthy way AT ALL.  I dealt with some pretty upsetting things during this week that would normally  have sent me running for the cheeseburgers, chocolate and wine.  I powered through, and I'm proud.

Most people mention losing 10+ pounds on this diet.  I cannot tell you how much I lost because I cannot bear to get on the scale.  I didn't take pics, but I will for my continued progress. I know that my belly is smaller.  I feel 1000% (no typo) better. I feel ready to take on truly healthy eating, minus the ten million cookies I will eat on Christmas Eve, but I will move on from that and be happy, lol.

The first day is all the fruits you like. Easy for some, hard for me.  I don't particularly care for fruits. I ate the presliced apples and grapes mostly. I did do my bootcamp workout.  I was a little worried because it seriously kicks my ass on a good macro day, but I did just fine.  Lots of water, tea and coffee. I know that coffee is not recommended, but hello!  I did also have some cabbage soup because I misunderstood the directions.  When my coworkers did it they could have the soup all week.  In this version I guess you just eat it on Day 7.  I only had the soup at lunch, and I do feel it helped.  Something hot made me feel better.

Day 2 is all veggies and a baked potato.  All of the blogs say it is the best potato you have ever eaten, and that is NO LIE.  Fucking amazing. I ate carrots, cucumbers, the cabbage soup, and then some roasted carrots, brocolli, cauliflower and the baked potato for dinner.  Yum!

Day 3 was veggies and fruit.  Relatively easy.  No soup today, but not really on purpose.  Because I forgot to pack it, lol.  I was supposed to work out again today, but was feeling crummy and my daughter needed treats for her teachers for Christmas, so no workout. I did scarf half a bag of SmartPop popcorn,so cheated, but justified it by saying corn is a vegetable. Gah.

Day 4 is milk and bananas.  This is literally my worst food nightmare.  I hate bananas. I'm lactose intolerant.  You can sub yogurt.  It said WW yogurt, which I couldn't find, but found some Greek yogurt that was 100 calories and fat free, so I went with that.  I had 3 bananas and 4 yogurts.  I had a headache and was very, very cranky by the time I went to bed that night.  Too much sugar, and I just wanted something crunchy to eat!!!!  I was a mess.

Day 5 is chicken and tomatoes. I had shredded chicken in the freezer, so I thawed it and ate that and a tomato for breakfast.  December is not a good time for tomatoes.  :-(  We ate pulled pork for lunch, so technically cheated again, but not major. I had more chicken and organic tomato soup for dinner.  Not bad, but not 100% compliant.

Day 6 is chicken and veggies.  I kind of blew today, but am okay with it.  Carrots for breakfast and went to BWW or lunch with my old Army buddies.  Ate naked tenders and a salad as my meal (sauces not compliant)and potato chip nachos (completely not compliant). FAR better than what I would have done before this.  A few glasses of awesome red wine...

I'm not doing cabbage soup day.  I am ready to move on the HEALTHY eating, mostly whole 30 based.  I hope this is what I needed to get me started on the right path to a healthy body.

Merry Christmas all!